Thinking About Dying

Under such circumstances, when Sir keeps bringing Log into this world, through Z, everything is well, spread out all over the world with people, like I said, Narus is all encompassing. So you need to coalesce oneself, to get myself working, in some form of defense mechanism. Otherwise I can say my self defense mechanism is all the way in Japan right now and I'm thinking about something inappropriate here. I can't think about dying and can't see the real danger, or anything appropriate for me to start working psychologically to have such thoughts about dying, thus, be able to have some conditioning towards the untoward danger that i'm facing right now.